Good night my b logger. very long2 time saya x new entry kn. Mesti u'llz ni dah x hiraukan saya.
actually now saya tgh cuti sem... focus saya x lah berapa nk bnyk. So suddenly saya ter remember pada someone yg perna jd special in my life. The person that im mean is my ex-fiance. U'llz perna x rase break off in relationship? hmm sedih kn. Actually saya still love him very much damn shit. But him dont want me in his life. saya nk share pada u'llz my fiance.
him as my fiance in my heart. Walaupun pada hakikatnya dia bukan milik saya lagi. Actually sudah hmpir 1 year we break off. we plan to get marriage last year together with his sister. hmm maby belum sampai jodoh kami untuk bersama.
'Baju Kurung Gold Colour' Ini baju yg that have sentimental value.
Ini baju that time saya tunang dengan him. Maby that time we decide untuk tunang, saya baru abis study diploma umur pun baru 21y/o n him 24y/o. muda lagi cara pemikiran kami.
Now day saya sudah 25y/o and him 27y/o. very fast kn time berlalu. Saya rindu lah pada him.
Saya tahu saya yg bersalah. Him x perna nk beri peluang kedua pada saya.
u'llz nk tahu x? actually ada bnyk kali juga lah say tyr call him but dont pickup.
Sedih sey but saya need to accept. Man actually difficult to give second chance to women. unless for women that really his love. So mean im not the women that my fiance love.
oh god ! saya stil keep it save in my personal computer. Actually above conversation saya dgn him last year not today ok. actually saya x berapa nk pasti him feeling. Now saya hanya perna berdoa pd allah.. then berusaha nk ambil hati him kembali dan berserah pd allah. if ada jodoh saya dgn him, allah akan bukak jalan untuk kami menjadi husband n wife. if not jodoh kami. Allah sudah plan from the top yg terbaik untuk masing2. Saya still mencari2 lagi kestabilan in my life. In education, working and financial. Bila sudah tiba masanya jodoh saya akan sampai. Now days saya sudah kurang berharap.
So only this,my story for today. Klu him follow my blog ni. After read this entry mudah2 lembut hati him for accept me again. Saya really hope we can life together until syurga. For my beloved blogger. appreciate whose in fiance relationship so that will be in marriage relationship.
